Is Being Sad Selfish? | Losing Something Close to You

I just lost something that I have never had a life without. Something I took for granted all my life and never even knew that I did. Something I didn’t use to it’s full potential until recently. Something that is beyond my reach of saving.... For the past year and a half my family has been helping my grandma sell her cottage that her and my grandpa built back in 1966. My grandma needs the money. For a while I didn’t think the cottage was going to to sell and it was God’s way of saying that we get to keep it and he will provide for my grandma in a different way. Apparently that wasn’t God plan. Recently, we got an offer on the cottage and it has been sold. My family couldn’t buy it from my grandma because we simply can’t afford it. On the other hand, my family did buy a small home outside of town for a more affordable price. This being said, we still have to say goodbye to a place where we have all grown up. I have grown up going to my grandma’s cottage on the lake all my life. I have so many memories their. Playing baseball on the beach with my cousins. Walking into town with friends. Swinging on the tire swing. Swimming in the lake. Burying each other in the sand. Losing flip flops. Jet skiing. Tubing. Playing bored games. Making sand houses. Getting kicked to sleeping under the stairs because there wasn’t room anywhere else. Playing the dumb game. Eating watermelon on the deck. Hammocking. The cheeseburger festival. Taking walks on the beach. Building forts in the woods. ATV riding. Playing on the ice. Hanging upsidedown on the stairs. Sledding. Fires on the beach. Fireworks on the 4th of July. Running to the lake and back. Picking rocks out from between the deck boards. Sleeping under the stars. Playing hide and seek in the dark on the beach. Putt putting. Go carting. Sliding down the big slide. Night swimming. And many many more. Yes I am blessed to still get to do many of these things but it’s not going to be the same at a different cottage. When I think of up north I think of my grandma cottage. Everything else comes after. I don’t want to sound ungrateful because I’m really not. I’m so glad and I understand that I’m super blessed that my family could buy a small house outside of the same town and we can still go up north. But at the same time I wish we could save my grandma’s cottage and all the memories there. I’m also not blaming anyone. It’s nobody’s fault that my grandma needs money. I just wish I could provide it for her so we could all hold on to this special place a while longer. Things will be different now for sure and this change isn’t just hard on me but also on my mom, dad, brothers, and mostly my grandma. Saying goodbye isn’t easy. Especially to a place that is so close to your heart. Am I wrong to be sad about this? Am I being selfish when I cry? Because many people don’t even have one Home and here I am crying because I can’t have two? Some people don’t have water to drink yet here I am crying because I won’t have a private beach? Then I found this quote: “Saying someone can't be sad because someone else may have it worse is like saying someone can't be happy because someone else may have it better. “ ~Unknown Through this Whole situation God is teaching me so many different things. Firstly, I need to trust that His plan is still better then my plan. (I don’t think God will ever stop telling me this) Secondly, I shouldn’t be angry towards others for things that aren’t their fault. Lastly, don’t take anything for granted. Everything is a gift from God and remember that daily.